This week’s video is going to be a little bit different.
I’ve spent many hours creating something very special for you all, in celebration of reaching 250 Patreon Subscribers.
In this longer format, vlog style, video I will give you a sneak peek into the behind the scenes world of my life as a multiply NeuroDivergent, educator and organizational consultant in the field of NeuroDiversity.
Patreon members and YouTube channel members had access to this video on August 27, 2021. The video’s public release will be September 29, 2021. (If you like, you may SUBSCRIBE to my Patreon at: https://www.patreon.com/NeurodivergentRebel)
It’s important that we all understand, that as Autistic People, there is not a unified autistic experience. We all have different opinions and very different experience, and I think it’s great to share those things.
If you’re a NeuroTypical watching, remember that this is just my experience as a NeuroDivergent Person. Hopefully, this video will inspire other NeuroDivergent People to share their experiences as well, how they relate, and maybe even do not relate in the comments below. I encourage you to listen to, and read, as many Autistic experiences as possible to best understand Autistic People.
I would LOVE to see more Autism vlogs by #ActuallyAutistic People.
[00:00:00] Good morning. I don’t usually talk this early in the morning. I just woke up. But today because, I hit 250 subscribers on Patrion. I would make a log. I haven’t been making a bunch of vlogs, so I am new to this. So please have patience with me. This is going to be interesting and, yeah, I woke up like this.
[00:01:24] Good morning. Welcome to my bathroom, my tiny bathroom.
[00:01:28] What ya doing? Good morning. I love you.
[00:01:34] Sadie’s like, “why are you making all this noise? It’s usually quiet in the morning.”
[00:01:38] I usually spend a lot morning not talking. I put music on. Oh my. This is going to be the most rambly vlog ever.
[00:01:45] Because I don’t know what I’m doing and I am rambly.
[00:01:50] When I do normal videos, I edit my ramby-ness out, but I think the vlog is actually… the point of what the vlog is to show my ramblyness… to show who I really am.
[00:02:03] This is the real me. Are y’all ready for the real, reall? The reals? The Reals of me? Are you ready? Can you handle this? I don’t think you can handle this.
[00:02:14] I going to put my contacts in… The cheap contacts because they’re cheap.
[00:02:20] I can feel them inside of my eyeballs. Good contacts costs three times as much, but I cannot feel them inside of my eyeballs.
[00:02:30] I don’t wear a lot of makeup anymore. I just kind of put some foundation on. Because … I’d rather wear a foundation then sunscreen, its less oily.
[00:02:41] There you go. Okay? Bing.
[00:02:42] I don’t know why just needed a signed efffect-sound effect, bing-bing-sound effect-bing.
[00:02:53] So today is my quiet work day. It’s my quiet work day, but I do have a lot of work to do. I am going to make a video or two for the NeuroDivergent Rebel YouTube channel.
[00:03:10] I also have some other work that I will do that I’ll show you as well, I found that I, absolutely, have to have at least a couple of days of week, where I work, and I just quietly work by myself on work because, like I have to, I have to manage and moderate my energy.
[00:03:34] So I have decided that, for me, the perfect formula has been, oh my gosh, this hair…
[00:03:42] The perfect formula has been working and doing two days a week only, of calls and engagements and activities with other people. Only two days a week, I can really handle something like that.
[00:03:59] And then, the other three days a week -I have a day where I do emails, and banking, and all the responsibility stuff, kinda boring stuff, you know?
[00:04:09] Then I have the, usually Tuesday and Wednesday, maybe, or Wednesday, Thursday, or Tuesday, Thursday, where I do calls with people and live chats, things like that, where there’s like socialization, human interaction.
[00:04:28] Then I have days like today and yesterday, uh, which are called, I call them my quiet work days, which is incredibly necessary for me, otherwise I get burnt out and now that I am managing my own schedule, I am learning how to not burn myself out because before I was doing things to neuro-typical standards all the time.
[00:04:54] Gags – I make a miss- I make a mess.
[00:05:02] Fast motion singing- dodie, dodie, do, do, do do.
[00:05:07] Actually, I normally would have music on now, but if I put music on, I can’t share the video on social media, because the music is going to be copyrighted. I have to sing to you instead.
[00:05:18] Do-do-do Doobie-doobie-doobie doobie do do doobie doobie doobie doobie… Are you annoyed yet?
[00:05:25] It’s 7:20am, seven twenty am.
[00:05:29] Look at that! You can’t see all the pimples.
[00:05:32] I figured out that I can give up gluten and sugar and have no pimples, but giving up gluten and sugar, it’s like giving up so many things.
[00:05:45] Uh, that’s a big, no, thanks. I’d rather have pimples, and gluten, and sugar.
[00:05:52] Ohhh Popsicle Popsicle. I want a Popsicle.
[00:05:56] Stick around with me long enough, you will realize, I eat way too many popcicles.
[00:06:11] Sensory seeking at its finest right here. Cold, Iceie.. Crunchy. Refreshing.
[00:06:24] This one. However, is not frozen correctly. It froze too fast and it doesn’t crunch the right way. It’s still good. Just not THE crunch, but now I’m awake more, because it’s cold, I’m stimulating my senses… sugar.
[00:06:44] Okay, maybe now I’ll be awakened enought to do something.
[00:06:49] I’m gonna draw on my eyebrows. Brush my teeth. Eyebrows. Yeah.
[00:06:58] This, yeah, this is my eyebrow pencil and these are my eyebrows before my eyebrow pencil. This is frickin magical – watch. I am going to fill in this part here that is gappy and missing stuff. So I’m going to go up from the bottom here, erp or err, err, err, err, I don’t know why it has that sound effect.
[00:07:24] Oh look, I have some eyebrow there. Wow. It’s magic. Now look at this one. Let me fix that too. Following the hairs. Would you look at that? Magic!
[00:07:36] We’ll keep going. Getting better.
[00:07:42] Oops. Oops. Oops. Oops. I made a mistake. I made-a Mistake, I made-a mistake.
[00:07:49] Uhhh… the mistake! Fix the mistake.
[00:07:57] I think that’s eyebrowable?
[00:07:58] This one’s darker than this one.
[00:08:00] I don’t have a light when I’m looking that way, but… this is kind of weird.
[00:08:08] Yeah, let’s try this.
[00:08:17] My face has done. That’s it. That is it for my face.
[00:08:21] Now I’m going to brush my teeth. It is sensory torture for me. Oh boy. I don’t even want to do this, but I got to, because I like to have teeth.
[00:08:32] Electric toothbrush, because I cannot stand a manual toothbrush. Like no, also can’t send nail file. Same deal.
[00:08:41] Toothpaste – this is gross. I hate this toothpaste.
[00:08:46] Recommendations welcome. If you have sensory friendly toothpaste, or sensory-friendly toothbrushing recommendations, please drop those in the comments below.
[00:08:54] I already know from talking to you humans out there in the internet, I’m not the only person that struggles with this.
[00:09:01] Okay. Time to do the not so fun thing. Come in here and gross. Gross meets gross. Here we go.
[00:09:22] I know that wasn’t the full amount of time. Cause my toothbrush has a timer. I didn’t make it to the end of timer, but I actually made it longer than I usually make it.
[00:09:33] I cannot brush my teeth for as long as I’m supposed to brush my teeth. But brushing my teeth a little bit is better than not brushing my teeth at all. That is my argument. Sometimes I don’t even get to brush my teeth for that long.
[00:09:46] Everything about teeth brushing is a nightmare, from the mint, to the slimy foam in my mouth, to the taste, and the brushing back and forth. I hate it!
[00:09:58] Oh, my hair. I got to figure what to do with my hair.
[00:10:03] I should have plugged this in a while ago, but I didn’t do things in order, because I’m a little bit distracted by the camera. If I’m honest. It’s throwing off my very specific routine, that normally has an order.
[00:10:21] I do the same things, the same order, each and every single day, because it helps me stay organized and not forget something. Uh, like to turn this on and let this warm up while I do the other things I already did.
[00:10:37] So now this is cold and I have to wait for to warm up.
[00:10:45] I’m going to put some music on. I need music.
[00:10:59] Okay. I just got a new haircut recently. I have really been struggling. I don’t know what to do with it. It is giving me many troubles. Many troubles.Just don’t know how to stay on my new hair.
[00:11:13] I really don’t know what to do with it. Ahhh… I don’t know. I’m just making stuff up and I’m going to get the hairspray out because I don’t know what else to do. Punk rock style it straight up? What my hair is trying to do. I mean it’s Friday
[00:11:49] I literally don’t know what to dow with my hair, except clip it back. All that effort, and I’m just going to clip my hair back. All of that effort. And I just gave up and clipped my hair back.
[00:12:01] I really, really need this not to be crooked. I really need caffeine right now. So I’m going to do that.
[00:12:19] This is what I’m doing today. Not particularly fancy, but just as good as Starbucks, in my opinion. Mmm. Instant!
[00:12:30] Sorry Rocko! Sorry Rocko. I kicked my dog in the face! I kicked my dog in the face.
[00:12:54] Yes, I really do have solo dance parties in my house by myself- every day.
[00:13:40] HI Hot- hot I-burned-my mouth is really hot.
[00:13:49] I have my coffee. So it’s time to get to work, right? Yes. Yes. Coffee means I can work now.
[00:13:55] Welcome to my desk. The place, where you hoomans, hoomans, humans, humans. Words.
[00:14:01] The place where you humans are used to seeing me.
[00:14:04] So today, Now that I’m more awake, I will be creating, shooting and editing, videos for the NeuroDivergent Rebel blog and channel.
[00:14:15] I also, uh, have been working in VR. So I’ll be doing a little bit of testing and writing some notes, because, I was sent a headset, to do some testing, and I really thoroughly been enjoying playing in VR.
[00:14:28] This is addicting, dangerously, addicting, so much fun.
[00:14:32] I think what I might do first is do some of the VR testing I need to do.
[00:14:36] I have multiple projects I’m working on right now, in my consulting job, that are related to. Educational experiences in VR. This is the future, and it’s really exciting.
[00:15:30] One of the cool things, about this, is something I’m not beta testing, but is in here, is this exercise program, where I punch these glass orbs. I don’t know what they are, but it is so much fun, and very addicting, and the next project I am going to start, doesn’t start, for 15 minutes… so I have three minutes, to do an exercise in VR. So I’m going to do that.
[00:15:57] Sensory seeking in virtual reality.
[00:16:02] Okay. I’m going to need these though. These controllers, I’m going to need theese. Also I’m attaching them to my hands, because I’m very worried. I might throw them and break them
[00:16:16] SO addicted to this. This is so much fun. Like I’m really hooked, really, really hooked on this. It’s really cool.
[00:16:24] Although I always do the same exercise every time. True to my Autistic nature, I use the same song every time
[00:16:57] Powering down. That was great. Sooo cool!!! There are other worlds. You are in another world. You can visit other parts of the world. It’s wild.
[00:17:12] Okay. I am really officially hot and sweaty now, but that was fun. Fun, fun, fun.
[00:17:19] So it’s almost nine. My calendar says that is when I need to start shooting my videos. It’s also when there’ll be enough light coming in, to where I don’t have to use this big artificial light. It’s getting a bit better.
[00:17:33] Before I get started called David. Uh, and where is David? You may ask, well, it’s Friday. Uh, and currently David is at work, not physically here. Well, that’s why I’m running around, and talking to myself, as I do when David is not here, but you’re here, so now I’m talking to you. So, it is not just the dogs that are listening to my rambling. Hey
[00:18:00] I’m back in the bedroom, because, before I get to work, I think this is an excellent opportunity to give you a tour of the RV.
[00:18:18] Dusty has already started the tour, perhaps I should follow. This is our tiny and somewhat messy bedroom.
[00:18:23] No, I did not make the bed, when I got up this morning. This is real life. It isn’t usually made.
[00:18:27] This is my tiny bathroom, where I get ready, every morning.
[00:18:32] David is banished to the even tiny bathroom, because I am a mess and take up all of the space. Yes, I will admit that.
[00:18:42] This is our kitchen.
[00:18:44] I need to wash that. This is the fridge. This is the other part of the kitchen. We have a microwave.
[00:18:52] This is our living room.
[00:18:54] And this is where I work.
[00:18:55] This is about it. This is the entire house.
[00:18:59] Two dogs are outside. Two dogs are inside.
[00:19:02] That’s all!
[00:19:03] Great day for a tour.
[00:19:05] Disclaimer, the house is not usually this clean, like this is abnormally clean. That’s why I said, “oh, this is a great day for a tour” because this is much cleaner than usual.
[00:19:13] Welcome to this. This is not reality. It is not usually this clean, but that’s why I’m kind of glad there’s some mess here to like, show. Okay. It’s not perfect, but it is usually worse.
[00:19:22] I’m about to start editing videos, and I wanted to show you my office mates, who are here while I’m making videos, making noise in the background.
[00:19:37] There are many cuts, and pauses, because of all of this rambunctiousness. One is actually outside right now.
[00:19:48] That is the reality of a bit of the behind the scenes. I am working in an RV with four dogs, and sometimes one other human. Like I said, David’s at work. So right now I’m the only humanoid creature-ism – is that a word?.
[00:20:09] Here right now. Yeah. This is awkward.
[00:20:16] A little bit about my setup. This is a nice laptop. Uh, I had to get it when I worked for the consulting company. And I’m so glad I did, because it is what powers everything I do. I couldn’t do my blog without it.
[00:20:30] This is a really cheap, flimsy, thing, but it’s awesome. I think it was like $15.
[00:20:39] You really don’t need the best, most expensive, equipment. This is the microphone I have. I was paid for a voice acting gig and part of the payment was this microphone, which is a fantastic way to get paid.
[00:20:51] This is a great microphone. Great microphone. I got it. You don’t have to have the best phone and the best anything to do this.
[00:21:00] In fact, when I started my blog, almost all of my videos were originally shot on an iPhone seven and I’m shooting this on an iPhone right now. And it is not the latest and greatest iPhone. It’s a decent iPhone. It’s newer because I broke my seven, but I dropped this phone a lot. I drop it all the time.
[00:21:19] I am a disaster. I can not keep from dropping things.
[00:21:25] The good news is my coffee is now cool enough to drink.
[00:21:31] All of the tiny marshmallows, however, have melted. Yum!
[00:21:35] I hear a dog barking outside. Let’s get Dusty.
[00:21:39] It’s just a short over here.
[00:21:43] Hey, Buddy. Let’s go. Here he comes… here’s my boy!
[00:21:49] That’s Dusty. Awesome.
[00:21:53] I’m going to turn off some lights now. I had these lights on for the tour. The grand tour that took all of two seconds. Or What was it? 45 seconds.
[00:22:01] It was a short tour. It was- I think it was like less than a minute front to back..
[00:22:03] I don’t even have my roller skates on. I roller skate in here. I totally roller skate in here.
[00:22:15] But I’ve got to get to work. I’ve got to do some work this vlog has been a distraction, from a lot of the work I need, to get to it.
[00:22:25] What am I doing? Am I doing today? What am I doing today? Ohhh, yeah, that’s going to be an intense topic.
[00:22:32] Hey, humans on the internet Lyric here. the words, words. Oh, let’s try this again.
[00:22:41] All right. Hey, internet humans, Lyric here, some of you may already know me as the NeuroDivergent Rebel.
[00:22:52] I want to do that again. I think that was just a warmup. I haven’t shot videos in awhile. I think last time I shot videos was like two Mondays ago.
[00:23:09] Oh, okay. I’m so glad I did that again. I feel a lot better about that one.
[00:23:12] I’m supposed to be working, but can we take a minute to stop, and I want to share with you how amazing this glittery ball is, because I love it so much? Sometimes when it works correctly, it lights up.
[00:23:26] This is like some random $5 thing I found at the store that gives me so much joy.
[00:23:31] And I’m trying to learn like,
[00:23:39] Hand tricks with it. I don’t know what it’s called, where you do tricks with the ball in your hand. I’ve got one, that’s a glass one, that if I drop on my floor and this bus, will break my floor and probably the ball, so that one’s only for, not here.
[00:23:54] I need to practice first, so that I’m not dropping this one, before I use one that’s breakable, but oh, there it goes.
[00:24:01] It actually worked, it lights up and it’s so stimmy and sparkly. It matches my hair, when it’s fresher. I love this thing.
[00:24:11] This is my workspace. Welcome to my workspace. This is going to hang out with me, in my workspace. Got this thing I need to take a picture of for social media it’s here, so I don’t forget, because otherwise out of sight, out of mind.
[00:24:22] I got my note cards for the next in-person presentation in a couple of weeks, I’m really excited about that one.
[00:24:28] I’ve already practiced it a few times. Uh, so like I know all of my things I’m working on here. Like visibly in the open. So I don’t lose track of them and I know where they are.
[00:24:37] Fridays I usually pack everything up and put it away. I’ve got this box. Let me show you that the, the, the ADHD box of shame.
[00:24:46] Let me grab my box, the box of things.
[00:24:51] I’m not going to open this box. Well, maybe I’ll open it, but no, I don’t even want to look in there.
[00:24:56] This is a box full of papers, and mail, and things I need to deal with. It used to be a much smaller box, but this box is growing, because I am not tackling the things fast enough. Things are growing faster than they’re getting done. I’ve been a little overwhelmed lately.
[00:25:13] When we moved the RV, everything has to be put away. I can’t have things up, because we’re going to be driving, so everything has to have some sort of a place, where it can be safe, and this box, is stashed back on the dresser, in the bedroom.
[00:25:28] I’m going to go put it back now. You see all that in there? Oh boy!!!
[00:25:32] I don’t want to deal with this, or have the willpower to deal with this right now, so it’s going back to the room. Goodbye box of shame.
[00:25:45] Okay. I’m back. We’re going to pretend we never saw that box. Right? Just kidding!
[00:25:50] We are laying out all the dirty laundry today. All, all dirty laundry I can think of.
[00:25:56] The other thing is, I have note cards for my presentation, even though I’ve I know all of the things, I can’t know the order I need to say things, and I worry I will forget things, that I need to say and the sequencing isn’t there, without some bullet points to keep me in order.
[00:26:13] So this is my note cards.
[00:26:14] On Zoom is actually much easier. Like it’s so much easier, actually, for me to give a presentation on Zoom.
[00:26:20] Uh, but it’s different in person. I think it’s good.
[00:26:24] A lot more work for me though, as an Autistic Person, to do an in-person training versus the Zoom training. Way more work, way more energy, especially if you have to travel.
[00:26:33] I haven’t been on a plane in a very long time. Uh, but we are taking the bus down to the coast for me to do some training for an organization in, in, uh few weeeks.
[00:26:50] I am struggling with bouncing back and forth between two cameras right now and I did not hit record on the laptop, for that whole first part of that, or the second part of that video.
[00:27:08] I just realized I was like about to go stop it, and I realized it wasn’t even recording.
[00:27:19] So exporting my movie from iMovie, now that I’ve shot the video, and edited the video. Next I’m going to put the video into a program called Dscript, which is what I use to create closed captions, captioning and transcriptions, for all of my videos.
[00:27:35] It is one of the first things I bought, was a subscription for Dscript, when I started Patreon. It was one of the first goals I had was to get this program, so I could caption the videos.
[00:27:46] Captioning THIS video is going to be a lot of work.
[00:27:50] Capturing videos is, actually, really hard for me. One of my additional problems is I have really bad audio processing issues, where I don’t process or hear things, word for word.
[00:28:01] I also think visually, more in pictures and videos, not in words, so trying to transcribe something when that’s not how I think, is really difficult.
[00:28:13] So I use Dscript, and it still takes me a while. It’s gonna take me a few hours. Before that it was taking me hours to do a three minute video.
[00:28:23] And I have shot a 15 minute video and it will take me hours to do that.
[00:28:27] But if I would’ve had to do a 15 minute video, without help, I will be crying. I would be crying. I cannot transcribe these videos on my own and Dscript is not paying me to say this. I am just saying it is. I found that worked well for me.
[00:28:47] As I’m waiting for this video to export, I’d love to talk about Patreon for a minute, because that’s why I’m doing this video.
[00:28:53] I promised that when I got 250 subscribers on Patreon, I would do a blog style video so that you could get it behind the scenes peek into my life.
[00:29:01] The Patreon members get a bit of a behind the scenes peek into my life, because I do Patreon stories, which is like Instagram stories, and it vanishes every 24 hours.
[00:29:10] Uh, but the rest of you really only see my polished and finished content, a lot of the times.
[00:29:17] Unless you follow me on Instagram, because I do do Instagram- do do, do do. No, I don’t- I don’t do doo on Instagram.
[00:29:25] I do Instagram stories too, but not as frequently, as I do Patreon stories. I do more on Patreon than I do on Instagram.
[00:29:32] That do do thing really distracted me. What was I saying?
[00:29:37] This video’s only halfway to the export. It’s not anywhere near done yet. Uh,
[00:29:44] Do do -No.
[00:29:48] What was I saying, though, what was I saying? What was I saying? That’s going to be this- that’s going to be this whole vlog.
[00:29:54] What was I saying? What was I saying? What was I saying?
[00:29:58] I am a disaster. Welcome to my life!
[00:30:02] I was talking about Patreon. Yeah. So this is like a, thanks to the Patreon subscribers, making this video, but I am going to share it with everybody in the public.
[00:30:13] Patreon members get a lot of videos first, as a thanks as well. Uh, and if you subscribe at Patreon, it’s patreon.com/neurodivergentrebel. It is as little as a dollar a month.
[00:30:25] I have it at pay what you want subscription, minimum of a dollar a month. I think that’s as low as I can go, on the platform, and if you subscribe annually, though, you will get a discount.
[00:30:36] It’s can be less than $12 a year, if you pay it with an annual subscription, it’s really cheap.
[00:30:42] And if people feel like doing more, they can always do more, but the main thing, for me, is I wanted it to be really affordable, and everyone gets the same exact benefits, regardless of what they decide to subscribe at.
[00:30:53] Patreon or not like, I’m grateful for you, if you are here, if you’re watching this video, hanging out with me, while I ramble on about nothing, and edit videos and can’t even figure it out, “what was I saying?” And you’re here?
[00:31:10] Thanks. Wow! I’m surprised. I thought I would scare people away in the first two minutes of this video with all of the rambling.
[00:31:19] My video exports has been successful, now I’ve got to back to work.
[00:31:45] It’s lunchtime and my contact lenses are already burning. I cannot wear them. That is the problem with the cheap contact lenses, I can’t wear them for very long
[00:32:01] Back to transcription.
[00:32:05] I really need to get finished transcribing this video. I’ve got five minutes left. I’ve been transcribing 10 minutes of this video for, I don’t know how long now. I should have kept track. It’s been awhile it’s been over an hour -it takes forever
[00:32:15] I am finally done and editing that video, and doing the transcription, and now exporting it, which takes a while, and then upload it to the Patreon subscribers, the YouTube channel members, and the Facebook subscribers, who get the videos early. This video is not coming out for at least another month, but subscribers, get it now.
[00:32:44] Waiting-Waiting-Waiting-Waiting-Uhh… this has been my entire Workday is editing, and getting one video out, with this Vlog, so I can kind of do two things at once, but not really.
[00:33:03] That’s it. That’s a wrap. That’s my day. I am done working. I am ready to start my weekend.
[00:33:10] If you found this vlog interesting, and want me to do it again, give me a thumbs up.
[00:33:14] Let me know that you liked this video, and maybe we’ll do another one where after I logg off, I will share my weekend with you.
[00:33:23] Let me know if you’d like to see my weekend. Drop comment, if you want to see that. Let me know what other kinds of vlogs you might want to see me do in the future.
[00:33:30] All right, humans, I will talk to you next time.
[00:33:33] Bye .
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