Shame Kills – Autism, NeuroDivergence, Pride, & Shame

Shame is defined as a painful emotion caused by consciousness of guilt, shortcoming, or perceived impropriety. That is one definition talking about how shame is experienced from the inside.

However, I want to talk more about having shame that is put on you from society and people around you; shame that is unjustified, that many NeuroDivergent, LGBTQIA, and other marginalized people may feel, and the impact that shame has on those of us who are in those groups.
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Queer, Trans, NeuroDivergent, Autistic: The Human Need for Authenticity

I knew, at the age of four or five, that I wasn’t a girl, but I couldn’t articulate what I knew, and the world told me I was a girl, and I had to get used to that somehow.

I also knew, around the same time, that I was not like other kids, but not knowing I was NeuroDivergent, also meant not having the language to describe that experience either, and falsely believing that I was an inferior, lazy, NeuroTypical child, and then, eventually, a inferior lazy NeuroTypical adult. I held myself to those NeuroTypical standards, even to my own detriment.

I forced myself to fit into their boxes, at the expense of my own mental and physical health.

I held myself to CIS heteronormative standards, often feeling like I was living a lie and pretending to be someone I wasn’t, for the comfort of other people.

I hit for safety, to blend in, and not make waves. I hid to avoid being the target of bullying and harassment, though bullies still managed to find me. That’s what happens when you grow up in a violent, hostile place, where you don’t feel you’re safe, and you are forced into the peripheries of society.

Being invisible was safer and preferable to standing out, so I did my best to be invisible, and it almost killed me.

Eventually, I got to a point where I couldn’t do it anymore. I came to a place where I could no longer maintain the complex social mask that had protected me for most of my life, and when it all fell apart, I found myself in a place of crisis and was diagnosed Autistic at 29. Continue reading Queer, Trans, NeuroDivergent, Autistic: The Human Need for Authenticity

Autistic and NeuroDivergent Masking – Help! I Don’t Know How to Unmask

NeuroDivergent masking is when a NeuroDivergent Person, a person who is brain may be Autistic, ADHD, dyslexia, dyscalculia, dyspraxia, OCD, et cetera. Is masking or hiding that NeuroDivergence, in order to blend in and appear more NeuroTypical. Continue reading Autistic and NeuroDivergent Masking – Help! I Don’t Know How to Unmask

A pale skinned nonbinay human wearing shorts, a fanny pack, and black star pasties is in the ocean leaning back facing the blue sky as the water crashes into their back.

Of Breasts & Chests – Criminalization, Sexualization, & Nipple Politics

Even though going topless is allowed for anyone in Austin, the person with breasts cannot draw attention to themselves, or they may risk other charges, such as public lewdness or disorderly conduct.

If an arresting officer decides an individual was intentionally “lewd or obscene” or if there are minors around, a topless individual with breasts may face serious felony charges and could potentially be registered as a sex offender. Continue reading Of Breasts & Chests – Criminalization, Sexualization, & Nipple Politics

Photo fo Lyric, a pale skinned, mixed race (Native & white) nonbinary human in their mid 30s, with short green and teal hair and shaved sides. They have armpit hair and are wearing sunglasses and a black top while glancing sideways and running their fingers through their hair. They are outside surrounded by green trees.

NONBINARY 101 – for International NonBinary Day

NonBinary is an umbrella term for MANY identifies of people who don’t identify as the binary male of female. This includes gender fluid people (like me), people who don’t identify with any gender, people who identify with multiple genders, etc. Continue reading NONBINARY 101 – for International NonBinary Day

NeuroDivergent Polyamory – Autistic NonConformity in My Relationships

Polyamorous people are able to have multiple relationships with multiple people at once. This extends beyond casual one-night stands, swinging, or flings (though there’s nothing wrong with that if that’s what you’re into as long as you don’t hurt people and have partners that are okay with that). Continue reading NeuroDivergent Polyamory – Autistic NonConformity in My Relationships

NeuroDivergent Rebel, a slim framed nonbinary human, in a purple graphic background stands in front of a pair of wings - with the text NeuroDivergent Rebel to the left of them

Who is the NeuroDivergent Rebel and WHY do they Write?

I am a person with many labels and identities, including a few I’ve taken on my own, changing my name (Lyric) and starting a blog (NeuroDivergent Rebel). My labels have given me power and a sense of pride, identity, and belonging I never had before. Continue reading Who is the NeuroDivergent Rebel and WHY do they Write?