I have stereotypical autistic pattern recognition. This often means I notice things other people miss.
CW – ABUSE
My first hand experiences being lured in by these charming, and sometimes charismatic characters. They hide behind a mask of kindness, but their darkness tends to destroy every person they touch, eventually.
Because other people cannot see the patterns I do, sometimes it is dismissed as paranoia OR people are confused at how I can “predict the future” so often.
I notice abusers have patterns.
Unfortunately there are a few “advocates” in our community who regularly engage in this behavior. It’s toxic and sickening to me.
If they abuse one person, expect one day they will abuse you too and don’t be surprised when it happens.
I also notice abusers often have either extreme insecurities, DELUSIONS of GRANDEUR, or BOTH.
They often think their needs are more important than the people around them, fail to take responsibility for their own actions, and will lash out when they don’t get their way.
Delusions of grandeur:
Being convinced they are somehow more “special” than the average human.
Because they see themselves as more important than they really are, they use the people around them as pawns, often discarding them when no longer useful.
Also in delusions of grandeur:
Thinking everyone should serve and cater to the person with an artificially inflated sense of worth.
They will exploit anything and anyone they can because they are somehow entitled to it.
They are often VERY nice publicly, but once you get to know them you realize they lash out a lot and have little to no consideration for the feelings of those around them.
Despite not caring for others these selfish people often will expect people to cater to their need & wants.
They may be bossy/think/act like they are leaders (self appointed).
These people need attention and CRAVE drama and will make up/pick reasons to fight with you. Your pain may even bring them joy.
It’s all about control. These people may have felt powerless growing up due to abuse and may abuse others as a toxic way to take their own power back.
They like to control the narrative and may even lie about you, telling wild stories to elevate themselves. They lie so often they may even believe their own lies.
Watch for people who’s lives are filled with drama, who constantly play the victim.
Also look for people who fail to take responsibility for their actions, blaming all their problems on external sources (people/situations).
They are not humble, in fact the are OFTEN power hungry, making up rules for the people around them.
That doesn’t mean they don’t hate themselves, it JUST means they prioritize themselves more than the people around them – because often those around abusers aren’t seen as people, they are tools to be used.
In fact, a lot of abusers DO have self esteem issues. They OFTEN themselves have even been abused in the past – sometimes leaning on their past abuse as an excuse, “I was hurt so now I hurt others”.
People sometimes use TRAUMA as an excuse hurt other people. Just because you went through some shit, that doesn’t give you a free pass to LASH out at others.
NOOOO – being damaged or traumatized DOES not mean you have a free pass to lash out/abuse and/or PROJECT you insecurities onto other people.
Abusers who’ve been abused are still abusers.
Regardless the TOXIC BEHAVIORS are unacceptable and inexcusable.
No passes, no excuses for abuse!
Abusers are predictable. They are always the same. Once I see one, for what they are, they are EXPOSED.
As an autistic person, it can be hard to spot them if you don’t know what you are looking for.
I hope this helps.
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